Every time I start to get somewhere it seems like someone or something knocks me the fuck back down. One step forward, two steps back. I read somewhere "without hope, man is but an animal" I think I've lost hope....I'm so fucking tired of being fucked up all the time but I can't seem to do it any other way, maybe I'm not as strong as you but sometimes my fucked up life brings me down when I look around. My life, it didn't make me hard, it just hardened something deep down inside of me. I think it was my humanity. I want it back, I want to feel normal again, I wanna feel like a human. I don't wanna be like this no more. I'm just looking for some shelter of salvation or something to believe in or maybe just someone who cared.